It was still in the same spot. I thought I threw it away but I looked and it was still there.
Tracing my scars over and over just to try to relive the pain. I can’t start again, I won’t start again, but I can try to remember. Try to remember getting rid of the pain. Make my pain feel real because right now it doesn’t feel like it should be.
I’m happy but sadness seems so much easier.
I really love you a lot and one day we’ll be together and everything will be great. Everything right now is exactly what I’ve dreamed of and I hope it only gets better. Thank you for helping me believe in myself. Thank you for knowing exactly what to say. I’m so extremely lucky to have you and I couldn’t think of anyone better to go through this experience with. I love you and I’m so blessed that you love me too.
my month in 30 seconds - march
Really really proud of Team Youtube. Some people might think they failed, but having the privilege to watch them online every day made me realize they actually achieved a lot more than people can see with this experience. You can only see people’s true selves in situations like this, and they sure showed the best side of them. They might not be the strongest team for that kind of race, but I’m sure the maturity they developed can take them to even better places. They went as Team Cute and came back as Team Passion, Team Positive, Team Fun, Team Sincere, Team Selfless, Team HEART, team FRIENDSHIP and no money can make up for these qualities. I’ve never loved them more. Thanks for the fun!